happy birthday... billy!
Hello WEBGORE surfers.... it's me, your beloved webmaster Billy! Announcing that today is my birthday!!
woo yay woo!!!
What a fun day it was :-). The night before, I had stayed awake until midnight so that I could watch the date change with my lover and my friends! I received many great wishes from people I cared for not long after the clock struck, all of which made me overwhelmed with the reminder that there are people out there who love me! I had spent the past few days miserable, caught in my own loop of despondence and painful brain static that made each day into a wearying blur; having this sudden show of love was enough to break me out of that cycle. That alone made today so wonderful. Of course, another factor that made the moment so sweet was my boyfriend, who lovingly dealt with me during my mental scramble in the minutes leading up to my special day, and then gave me a present that was so tender, so thoughtfully crafted with affection, that it made me cry... quite a few times over....<3
It was not long after 1 in the morning that I had finally fallen asleep, and I woke up later that morning at 6. I showered, surprised my mother as she tried to discretely set up the family living room, waited for my father to bring me home birthday breakfast; the day continued rather serenely. A scene straight out of a simple slice-of-life. I played Minecraft with my sister for hours, and then I played Minecraft with my brother right after. I even made myself a keychain for the event using an old trinket I obtained in elementary school:
Other presents I received from family included a fashionable belt (briefly seen in the image above), a dragonfly pendant as well as dragonfly hairclips (as a result of my mom finding out about my intense attachment to the insects from childhood), various art supplies of varying quality, and a CD of Mitski's newest album (which I quickly ripped the tracks to! I don't find streaming services to be super appealing, as you'd expect from someone on the indie web, so I've been aching to gather more physical products!)
I think today was a special day. After brooding over my own issues for so long, I wasn't expecting myself to find much joy in the celebration... But I still ended up enjoying myself :-). The superstitious part of my brain assumes that the misery was abound to ensure I could have a good experience today.... Well, I don't have any reason to dwell on that thought much longer anyways. Happy birthday to me, and hopefully I'll be able to say the same next year! Excuse this page for being so rushed lol
